This elegy has been written by Joe Winter, Asphodel's elder son
After five years I seem to know you less.
Still we meet as before, and still you see
exactly where I am. Again you bless
my birth, my mother. Still you welcome me
and start the meeting with such tenderness,
I seem to know my special history
on Earth. But then an absence. We address
the conversation in a minor key.
It is because we do not meet on Earth
at all. And still you bless me. Now my dear,
if you are lost to me, past death and birth,
yet where we meet is neither there nor here.
And if I bless you too in my unworth,
by a remembrance, still we may be near.
Not death, not birth. A vivid sensible thing,
clearer and closer than I knew before.
It is you to the quick. How can a trite rhyme
brim with youth's energy, and carry more
unseen, the lock and key of age's store?
But that a poem is a remembering,
that makes a case for the precious things of time,
word-woven, with a wordless strengthening.
I never knew, who had run away from home,
shout joy for Stalin. I see the glint of a pearl
in every word I hear. A quick concern
for others of all sorts. I see her roam
the city, with her mind on a slow burn.
Restless within. Prowling forward, the past
in fragments of broken glass, a wind too wild
shrieking out of old voices, a shadow passed
in need of warmth, from too much hurt as a child.
It slipped from hostel to workplace, bus to train,
into the traffic of day arriving late,
yet quickening soon. A slight spatter of rain,
a roving intent, a streamlet in full spate.
Yours was a mind that never learned to hate,
a spirit that struck out at the dark and cold,
by offering some a lightness with their fate,
and shelter to other souls when you were old.
Young in London now you shed your cares
with poetry, conversation, and love affairs.
Cut to mid-stream. A journalist in Kent,
a Labour Councillor, a mind inspired
by prehistoric sites, a warmth that lent
itself to all, a humorous, slightly tired
woman in touch with time and the event.
A link upon a necessary chain,
who seemed to know the pace at which things went,
and that the day does not come round again.
From you I learned to rest against the grain
of day. The crease of work became my home.
The dreamer's airy mantle that had lain
on a youth's shoulders, promising to become
a leaden weight, was finely whipped away.
I saw I had a bill or two to pay.
Later you taught me more - still not by telling.
The lesson was the life. You were at war
with dogma - a magnificent rebelling
of the atom in the compound. To abhor
cruelty of all sorts - and more, to fight
for women, a good soldier, was your calling.
The goddess Hochma touched you with her light,
and you were her. And still the light is falling.
Mother, I loved you best in your old age.
Open to all, intuitive and kind,
for a finer time to come you set the stage.
A number were refreshed and re-defined
by the power of knowing you. Alight so long,
you made the human element more strong.
After five years I seem to know you more.
Still we meet as before, but now I see
the generous secrecy of Time restore,
within a simple tribute, you to me.
For set outside the accidental law
of ordinary circumstance, and free
of birth and death, of after and before,
there is a realm, it seems, where all can be,
beyond the moment when all is less clear,
can I trace you now. A few poor lines, fresh-marvelling
at the shape of a fire, are all that hold you here.
Yet if I read, then through the lines sure-travelling,
your shade is with me still, or precious near.